Which is the shitty thing about people.
People suck sometimes. Even the ones that aren't supposed to. Even the ones that you've known for what seems like forever. Even the ones who know your deepest darkest secrets. Even the ones you have tons of history with. Even they can royally screw you over.
|Until they're not.|
And it hurts.
It hurts bad.
It hurts so much more than when bad things just happen outside of the control of anyone. It hurts so much more than when strangers do or say things. It hurts so much more.
It is a greater violation, no two ways about it.
It is, for the simple reason that someone who is supposed to be your ally chooses to hurt you.
The reasons for a so-called friend to betray another are as many as there are colors in the world, though the reasons almost always boil down to one thing. Selfishness.
I want something you have. I don't want you to have it anymore. I don't honestly care if I hurt you as long as I get what I want.
I have had this happen a few times in my life, the last was the greatest. The worst of them all.
What makes it hurt even still today is that it's made me realize that even though I was always that friend to this person, they never were to me.
All those years of being supportive, of being the safe place, of giving encouragement, meant nothing to her.
I meant nothing to her.
Even after all this time, it still hurts.